Wow. Six months later, new city, new job, new house, new roomates, new pets, new furniture, working on a new car, new lovelife, new weather, NEW ME!

It's been a very crazy six months! I feel like my life has been turned inside out and rolled around a few times!  Graduation is a funny word. You build up with four years of really hard work and nobody really tells you what to expect when its over. Society leaves you with the impression that money, fame, fortune and opportunity await you at the end of the road, but nobody informed me that the more you work the more tired you feel and the more tired you feel the more you sleep. So the more you work, the more you sleep and both of those coupled means the less fun you have! Haha!

On the brightside, I have a wonderful new house! And for the most part, great new roomates! It's hard sometimes to live in a triad, I've found that living with two former bestfriends sometimes throws me right in the middle of a jealousy tug-o-war... But after a few knock-out fights, I think we've worked through the eye of the storm. I feel comfortable here, I like that. It's not the same as my little dorm apartment with Patty, but it's fun just the same :)

Work. Work is well, work. I passed my NCLEX on July 7th, you know that licensure exam that I'd been building up and preping for since graduation. GOODNESS! All of that feels just like yesterday! June was one intense month for me! And now I am BLESSED with the MOST incredible job EVER! I finished my four month long ICU critical care internship! Not sure how much of it all stuck in my brain ;) But I had a blast and ended up choosing to work in the medical ICU. I love working at the BIGGEST level1 hospital in WEST TEXAS! It's amazing and busy and exciting! My only peeve is psychiatric pt's...ughhhhh.....I have some funny stories. Oh that, and right now we have more swine flu than I've ever seen in my whole life.

Love. Love has a funny way of making it's entrance and kissing you while your eyes are close and you're swaying under the stars :)
I thought I was in love before, but I was simply comfortable and I've recently met someone that has helped me to open up my closed off heart and love more openly, more great, more deeply than I ever thought I possibly could! He is wonderful, simple, kind, full of passion, and might I add completely GORGEOUS! I am really excited to see where things go with this! I can't help but fall harder and deeper when I am with him, my head swim's and swirls in his scent and I'm constantly lost in his beautiful brown eyes. Listen to me? Who am I? Haha! He is encouraging, Godly, full of Grace with me, hard working, determined and commited. He's...dare I say, the perfect compliment.

My only peeve about this new romance is that my friendship with Ryan plumited. Big time. I have never not stayed friends with an EX. Now don't get me wrong, I am not dumb, I know it was hard for both of us, but the breakup was a long time comming, lots of questioning and doubts... I just don't understand why he acts like he never met me, shutting me out of every section, corner and segment of his life...it's sad, it's hurtful, but if that's how he is going to be, so be it. I can't change his mind, just like he couldn't change mine. I think more than anything I miss his friendship simply put. blah blah. Enough is enough. No more.

Anyways, the seasons have been changing, the leaves actually turn here, somewhat. It's also supposedly going to be the wetest, coldest, most wintery winter Lubbock has seen in a few years :) I'm excited!! Well anyways, This was a nice update... Maybe another soon?

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Ps. Have you ever watched that "Dog the bounty hunter show"... it is completely retarted!

If your parents pay for your school, stop reading. If your parents buy your groceries, stop reading. If your parents pay for your gass, stop reading. If your parents bought your car, stop reading. If your parents send your birthday cards and gifts, stop reading. If you see your parents at christmas, stop reading. If your parents buy your clothes, stop reading. If your parents pay your cell phone bill, car insurance, or pet food, stop reading. And if your parents do none of the above, then continue, because maybe you will understand my frusteration.

This month, I've had to eliminate my savings account due to up comming NCLEX test. I've shelled out a little over 500 when it was all said and done. This may not seem like a lot. Untill you throw my 350$ review book/course into it.  Ugh. That just about broke my bank. Not to mention, in between all of this, I have to buy groceries, gass and pay my car insurance. Sucks. But its kind of a thing you HAVE to do. Well then, today I find out that I went over 150 minutes on my cell phone bill. MOTHER F*CKER! at 40cents a minute, go ahead and add up how much that is? A LOT, like 60 bucks a lot. So now I'm looking at a 150 + cell phone bill I get to pay next week. Well due to spring break, my measly minimum wage paycheck is only going to be about 200$ (and thats for the whole month) but I can pretty much kiss that goodbye due to my cell bill. And, what gets better? I was supposed to go to Lubbock next monday so I could find apartment and put a down deposit on it. Not going to happen anymore. If I did that, I would have exactly 40 dollars to last me until May 15th. .. And $35 of that has to go towards my Graduation cap & gown. So now Lubbock is off untill the end of May. And I'm bummed but oh well you do what you gotta do. Oh but hey my day gets even better, that test I failed? Oh I only got 1 point back giving me the GLORIOUS total of a 63%.

Go me. I suck at life today.


I'm probably going to make this entry private eventually. Simply because I dont want to hear a bunch of crap about it.

 

I have the freakin FLU.

Again...

I'm sick again, looks like the only thing I'll be cuddling with tonight is my good friend influenza type A.

Thanks Texas for being so sucky and full of contaminated people right now.

 

....I was up at the hospital assigning my patient care team their room numbers, and this Doctor came back to the charting area where I was seated, and he was wearing Di Gio by Armani....only he had just a hint of cigarette smoke on him mixed with a hint of spearmint gum that still lingered.

I immediately became overwhelmed--especially after the WEIRD dream I had last night.

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